There comes a point when my fridge is empty
and I haven’t got any food 

and maybe I haven’t been out for a day or two…

what happens is that i feel my chest tightening
and my breathing is getting shallower and
as I’m getting more anxious
I feel as if I’m being strangled in some way.

My heart beats louder and louder
to the point where
I think that other people are actually going to hear my heart
beat
as
I
walk.

I feel my body is like jelly I’m not at all sure footedI’m scared that I might fall over

I’m now
a prisoner who’s moved out into a very hostile area
and er, I dunno how long this is gonna take

I’m overwhelmed I mean to be surrounded by this cacophony of noise 

and I’m now stuck behind someone trying to gauge:
how long is it gonna be before I get to the counter ”
because
I’m frozen
with
this…

This is just a bloody nightmare!

Now, because I’ve been feeling these things for decades
I recognise that there’s a way through this
because I was convinced that it would just kill me altogether

because the level of stress I’ve been carrying around,
I thought would give me a heart attack 
or something similar.
And so far it hasn’t.

It’s rather like a fish wriggling at the end of a hook.
Initially one might think:

.

.

Mike’s wriggling in this way 
and it makes no sense at all
he’s doing a crazy dance.

.

Until you see the hook in my gullet
and it starts making sense

I think a lot of us are wriggling .

That’s seen as a kind of illness…

without the vision of the hooks that we’re bound by so it seems that our behaviour is very crazy when in context it isn’t

AnimatedMinds.com  http://animatedminds.com/the_films/fish_on_a_hook/