fish on a hook

fish-0There comes a point when my fridge is empty
and I haven’t got any food 


fish1and maybe I haven’t been out for a day or two…



what hafish3ppens is that i feel my chest tightening
and my breathing is getting shallower and
as I’m getting more anxious
I feel as if I’m being strangled in some way.

My heart beats louder and louder
to the point wherefish5
I think that other people are actually going to hear my heart

I feel my body isfish6 like jelly I’m not at all sure footedI’m scared that I might fall over

fish7I’m now
a prisoner who’s moved out into a very hostile area
and er, I dunno how long this is gonna take


I’m fish8overwhelmed I mean to be surrounded by this cacophony of noise 


fish10and I’m now stuck behind someone trying to gauge:
how long is it gonna be before I get to the counter ”

I’m frozen

This is just a bloody nightmare!

fish11Now, because I’ve been feeling these things for decades
I recognise that there’s a way through this
because I was convinced that it would just kill me altogether

because the level of stress I’ve been carrying around,
I thought would give me a heart attack 
or something similar.
And so far it hasn’t.

fish13It’s rather like a fish wriggling at the end of a hook.
Initially one might think:



Mike’s wriggling in this way fish14
and it makes no sense at all
he’s doing a crazy dance.



Unfish15til you see the hook in my gullet
and it starts making sense




I think a lot of us are wriggling .



That’s seen as a kind of illness…


fish18without the vision of the hooks that we’re bound by so it seems that our behaviour is very crazy when in context it isn’t



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