Stephen Fry talks about his depression – and voices

This one’s for a friend having a tough time right now….

In this clip from the excellent BBC documentary “Secret Life of a Manic Depressive” Stephen Fry, in midst of a black cloud, talks about how he experiences depression – a wall of blank nothingness.

There comes a time when the blankness of future is so extreme, it is such a black wall of nothingness

“There comes a time when the blankness of future is so extreme, it is such a black wall of nothingness:  not even of bad things – it’s not like there’s a cave full of monsters that you’re afraid of entering the future . It is just nothingness – the neo as the French would say – la vide, the void. emptyiness….. and it is just horrible.”

..of how how he tends to deal with it –

 “usually I hide away”

“for me that dumbing kind of depression comes thre to four tmes a year and lasts a week to ten days. I spend the time inside the house, staring at the ceiling “

…and of how he’s never really thought of himself as someone who hears voices…

” but I do: I have this constant voice berating me, telling me I’m ‘a piece of shit’  all the time in my head.”

“I’ve never really thought of myself as someone who hears voices, but I do”

“but it’s clearly my voice .”

Mood to me is like weather

“Mood to me is like weather. If it’s raining, it’s no good saying it isn’t raining it s real.”

see the whole thing at

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2 Responses to Stephen Fry talks about his depression – and voices

  1. Thank~ you Stephen for allowing the world to walk alongside you as you journey back and through your personal experience.
    In the. United. States, the approach is quite similar by the medical profession. Yet, there are fantastic alternative resources available worldwide which are well respected and perhaps, would be of a great life changing benefit.
    Check out. Trauma ~ Informed Research
    Known to all human beings at one time or another .. When Dramatic events occur which touch our lives .. We as a human family need to be heard and understood.
    Something so simple as losing a close friend, or devastating as neglect or abuse takes a tremendous toll on our very lives.
    Look on the web . Some helpful sites :
    Intervoice International
    Mad. In. America by. Robert. Whitaker
    Anatomy Of An Epidemic by Robert Whitaker
    Mad Radio hosted by Will Hall

    Much gratitutude. Stephen


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