Heartbreaker – Karen Chung

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Somewhere – Supaman

Supaman – Somewhere

[Hook 2x]

(Throw your hands in the air)
It’s one life to live, so live it the best you can
(Native Crow everywhere)
(Na-Native-Native-Native-Native American)
(Throw your hands in the air)

[Verse 1]
Somewhere there’s a person who lost a mother
Lost a son, lost a friend, lost a brother
Way back, they had a fight. Never spoke hardly
Now they’ll never get the chance to say I’m sorry

Somewhere there’s a little boy who’s ready to play
First game, basketball, but this a sad day
See, Dad’s had a fight with his Mom and he was gone
Now he’s sad seein’ ‘notha dad sharing they son arm

There’s a young girl cuttin’ her flesh
Suicidal, nothin’ but death up in the breath
Molested by a loved one, the pain is real
But won’t tell anybody ’cause the shame she feels

And somewhere there’s a man cheatin’ on his wife
Playin’ with fire, been a liar all his life
And he laughs that his whole past is stained with sin
And doesn’t know his wife’s doin’ the same thing to him
And it’s real

[Hook 2x]
(Throw your hands in the air)
It’s one life to live, so live it the best you can
(Native Crow everywhere)
(Na-Native-Native-Native-Native American)

[Verse 2]
Somewhere there’s a person who lost a mother
Lost a son, lost a friend, lost a brother
Way back, they had a fight. Never spoke hardly
Now they’ll never get the chance to say I’m sorry

Somewhere a young woman just hit the stage
They throwin’ dollar bills at her, she strips for days
She’s gettin’ paid tryin’ out different ways
She cries herself asleep and says “It’s OK”

And somewhere there’s a pastor who prays a lot
But sometimes it feels like heaven’s gates are locked
Come Sunday, he’s preachin’ all about kids love
Even though he knows his daughter’s strung out on drugs

Somewhere there’s a young man watchin’ his back
From the bullies at the school ‘cause they always attack
See, he always had a hard time makin’ some friends
And if the bullies don’t stop, he’s gonna take his revenge
And it’s real

[Hook 2x]
(Throw your hands in the air)
It’s one life to live, so live it the best you can
(Native Crow everywhere)
(Na-Native-Native-Native-Native American)

H-H-H-Hey Victor
H-H-H-Hey Victor

Hey Victor, what about your dad?

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TRANSverse Issue 16 : Madness

TRANSverse Journal is launching its 16th Issue

TRANSverse #16 Madness!
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Join our celebration of Issue 16

Thursday, June 1st
Voodoo Child Espresso & Cocktail Bar
388 College Street

The event will bring together UofT’s student and Toronto’s MAD communities for a fun night of readings, spoken word, food and drinks.

And, of course, don’t forget to grab your FREE copy of Issue 16 for some Mad articles and poetry!

We hope to see you there!

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Filmmaker JJ Neepin recreates her great-grandfather’s portrait and explores the meaning, the responsibility and the weight of wearing a headdress.

“To me, the headdress is a symbol of leadership.”


“A headdress carries so much weight.’ Why I made the film ‘Headdress’

From: CBC/shortdocs

JJ Neepin is the director of Headdress, short documentary about the recreation of her great-grandfather’s portrait and the responsibility a headdress may carry.

I am an Indigenous woman and a member of the Fox Lake Cree Nation in Manitoba. I was born and raised in Thompson, Northern Manitoba; I now live and work in Winnipeg. I am a full time filmmaker. My sister Justina is also my business partner — our company is called JJNeepinFilms Inc.

The idea for Headdress came up in 2014, when singer Pharrell Williams appeared on the cover of a magazine wearing a Native-inspired headdress. When I first saw the photo, I had mixed feelings about it. It was a beautiful photo of a great artist — but no matter the intention, it felt disrespectful.

When I see a non-Indigenous person wearing a headdress, it feels like my entire culture has been reduced to a prop, a costume. My culture is rich and complex, and it feels stolen when I see a headdress used as a simple fashion accessory.

When the Pharrell story was all over the news and social media, most people I knew were angry and frustrated, including Justina and me. We discussed it at length. It got me thinking about my own connection to a headdress in a new way.

What does it mean to wear a headdress?

I began researching what the headdress meant to the Cree, and to other nations.

I found the headdress has several meanings and protocols, depending on which band or nation you come from. And I learned a headdress may come in different shapes and sizes, depending on who is wearing it and for what purpose.

I also learned that some nations will adorn non-Indigenous political figures with a headdress, as a symbol of hope that these politicians will address Indigenous issues. A headdress carries so much weight. I wanted to let others know about it, what I had learned, and I wanted people to talk about it.

I come from a long line of leaders

I’ve known that a headdress is important to my culture since I was a child, but I began to learn more when my father was elected Chief of our band, the Fox Lake Cree Nation, when I was around 20.

I was in Winnipeg for school and he was always on reserve, working. When he came to Winnipeg, I saw the new ways he had to conduct himself and the weight of the responsibility, accountability and stewardship of being a chief.  It was his duty to take care of our band members and the land. Just as any politician must follow social etiquette, Indigenous protocol is similar: there are rules and ceremony, unique to each nation.

That’s when I started to pay more attention to the black and white portrait of my great-grandfather in our living room. I noticed, for the first time, that I came from a long line of leaders, and realized that I had the potential to do something just as important.

The complicated task of borrowing a headdress

Our original concept for the film was to do a promo photo shoot with a headdress — but that didn’t feel right. It still reduced the headdress to a costume.

I posed a question to my sister: what if we recreated our great-grandfather’s portrait? It would add a personal connection.

Our search for a headdress was complicated. We were confronted with more questions about protocol. Because I am not a chief and not a man, we encountered raised eyebrows right from the start.

We had trouble finding nearby and available chiefs who could help us. Even if my intentions were good, even though I am a First Nations person myself and promised everything would be handled with the utmost respect, there was still chance we’d be unable to obtain a real headdress.

Then we asked our father George for help. He had a friend, Dr. Sydney Garrioch — a former Manitoba Grand Chief — who was willing to lend us a smaller and older headdress, with a promise that it be handled with care, respect and only touched by my sister and me. It was challenging for us to keep this promise while allowing our cinematographer Ryan Herdman to get the shots we needed.

I said I would put it on a maximum of three times; therefore, it had to sit on my head for a long while. We smudged before, during and after to keep us grounded in what we were trying to accomplish. As I say in the film, the headdress was quite heavy. Its physical weight felt like a gentle reminder of the metaphorical weight it carries as well. I had thoughts on what it must be like to be a real chief and if that is a potential path for me — I still have not decided yet.

When I saw the moments Nadya (my photographer) and Ryan had captured, I started crying. I was so elated and overwhelmed.  I had been so worried that everything my sister and I were doing might not go over well, but showing the film to my family and colleagues reassured me that Headdress would indeed start a conversation.

Headdress premiered at the 2017 Hot Docs Film Festival in Toronto and I was surprised by the warm reception it received. Feedback was positive and many people wanted to discuss it more and encouraged me to keep the conversation going.

My ultimate goal is to return to this ongoing discussion and make a documentary feature to address the topics and issues this short piece has sparked.

Original here: http://www.cbc.ca/shortdocs/blog/a-headdress-carries-so-much-weight.-why-i-made-the-film-headdress

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Hyperactive – Thomas Dolby

Tell me about your childhood…

Hyperactive – Thomas dolby

At the tender age of three
I was hooked to a machine
Just to keep my mouth from spouting junk.
Ha! Must have took me for a fool
When they chucked me out of school
‘Cause the teacher knew I had the funk.
But tonight I’m on the edge –
Fellas, shut me in the fridge
‘Cause I’m burning up! (I’m burning up.)
With the vision in my brain
And the music in my veins
And the dirty rhythm in my blood!
They are messing with my heart…
And they’re messing with my heart
And they’re messing with my heart
Won’t stop messing with my… ohh!
Ripping me apart!
Hyperactive: when I’m small
Hyperactive: now I’m grown
Hyperactive: and the night is young
(And in a minute I’ll blow!)
Semaphore out on the floor
Messages from outer space
Deep heat for the feet
And the
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Indomitable – DJ Shub






Stream or buy DJ Shub’s debut EP, entitled
(December 2, 2016)
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no leaders please – Charles Bukowski

invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
change your tone and shape so often that they can
categorize you.


No Leaders Please
Charles Bukowski

invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
don’t swim in the same slough.
invent yourself and then reinvent yourself
stay out of the clutches of mediocrity.

invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
change your tone and shape so often that they can
categorize you.

reinvigorate yourself and
accept what is
but only on the terms that you have invented
and reinvented.

be self-taught.

and reinvent your life because you must;
it is your life and
its history
and the present
belong only to

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revealing the trauma of war

Excellent article in National Geographic about application of very simple, powerful approach of encouraging vets to make and paint masks as a way to express their pain, their woundedness.

As one says…

I THOUGHT THIS WAS A JOKE, I wanted no part of it because, number one, I’m a man, and I don’t like holding a dainty little paintbrush. Number two, I’m not an artist. And number three, I’m not in kindergarten.
Well, I was ignorant, and I was wrong, because it’s great. I think this is what started me kind of opening up and talking about stuff and actually trying to get better.”
– Staff Sgt. Perry Hopman, who served as a flight medic in Iraq.

and from elsewhere…

“We don’t call it post traumatic stress disorder, we call it post traumatic stress injury– because thats what it feel like – an injury”

– Iraqi war vets talking with Peter Levine

Sometimes – in fact most times – words cannot express the wounds within because our talking, thinking word-based brain shuts down.

“All trauma is pre-verbal.”
-Bessel van der kolk

When we find it difficult to muster words to adequately convey what we’re struggling to hold within we can find that others impose their words upon us, using words that lead to us being defined and categorised by those whose chief concern is defining and categorising and forget that there are no categories that exist outside the minds of those who observe and categorise.

Lets face it, words are overrated as a means of communicating.


“I had this muzzle on with all these wounds and I couldn’t tell anybody about them.”

– Marine Cpl. Chris McNair (Ret.)


We can instead turn to other forms of expressing and communicating what words cant and that predate words.
Mask making is trivialised in western culture yet remains a  deeply human way of expressing very human experiences.

Now we need extend the same and similar approaches to include all living with pain that words offer limited  inadequate  – the civilians and kids especially.

And lets not limit this kind of approach to those caught up in wars – as Bessel van der Kolk says:

“there are four or five times as many kids in grade schools affected as there are veterans returning from war.”

Original article and photos here  http://www.nationalgeographic.com/healing-soldiers/




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What does “trauma informed” really mean?

Trauma does not mean “that shit that happened”.

Trauma means “wound”.

Trauma is the effect left within us.

The essential experience of that effect- “trauma” – is being left feeling disempowered and disconnected .

That’s the nature of wound.

Thorns in The Spirit
“Thorns in the Spirit” – that’s what William James called it.

It can lead to all kinds of shit. Which of course leads to more wounding, wounds woundedness.

Freezing the conversation in talking about events – those that either do or do not qualify as trauma – or,  more accurately, that qualify us for treatment-  is itself traumatizing. It freezes us in a state of disempowered and disconnected state.

Sometimes what happens – is happening to affect us that way is so subtle, pervasive, endemic that we forget or blind ourselves and each other to awareness that it affecting us that way.

We can’t do much about what happened.

We can stop telling lies.
We can stop telling people who are struggling to feel safe in the world that they have a disorder, illness, biological deficit

We can learn to accept and understand how what did happen and especially how left us feeling unsafe in this world.
We can understand how that leaves us experiencing this world as one in which it is difficult to feel safe. 

The essential experience of living with trauma is being left feeling disempowered and disconnected – and when we feel like that it is difficult to feel safe. 

We can heal.

It takes time but we can
It takes as long as it takes.
We can learn to heal the wounds- our own.
And we can learn to support others in healing theirs,
at their own pace.

Pushing Trauma
Pushing “trauma” – goading us into telling retelling what happened to us  is itself traumatising.

Pushing people to fix themselves without first addressing what they need to feel safe- whatever that is-  that really is not “help”.

If you’re seeking to support someone who’s struggling to feel safe in the world then one thing you can do is stop making it about you and stop making it about what you can do and how you can fix them.

Then, you can recognize your desire to fix them as a sign
– of the woundedness within you and of your own need for healing.

That’s what “trauma informed” really means.

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To all the creatures within us…

Star Trek The Next Generation
Season 5 episode 20 “The Cost of Living”

Alexander, son of Worf, on Holodeck 2 enjoying a mudbath with Lwaxana Troi…

“To all the creatures within us”




“to all the creatures within us?”




“Of Course!”

“Everyone of us has a thousand different kinds of
little people inside of us
some of them want to get out and be w-i-l-d
and some want to be a bit sad, or happy, or inventive
or even just go dancing
and that’s why we all have so many different urges at different times”

The mind opens and wisdom enters…

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