Thorns in the spirit…


Trauma means Wound
Trauma is not the thing that happened – it is the effect left within us by our experiences of what happened
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Thorns in the Spirit
The term trauma was first used in this way by William James in 1908 – “the shock”
and reminiscences of that shock he likened to  thorns in the spirit.

If you’ve had a thorn in you you know how painful that can be. You also know that if you can pull it out then the pain can go away. You might also know how if you don’t it will burrow deep, you might not feel it much of the time but every now and then you will. Amazing how a tiny thing can cause so much pain, even prevent us using that finger, foot, leg.

Sometimes we think we’ve pulled it out only for a tiny fragment to remind us.

Trauma is like that- but the thorn is not just in our flesh [and it is stored in the body more than the brain] but also in our spirit- our soul, our psyche, our sense of self.

Trauma affects every aspect of who we are and how we might experience the world.

And it manifests in many ways, including all those ways that get called “symptoms” not only of “mental disorders” but also pretty much every chronic illness that is current and rife in society today. There are the many and various ways that trauma sits lurking within us, subdued  then, when we least, expect pierces through the surface to remind us “I’m still here”.

Trauma forges survivors out of flesh. It  can also harden us so we become so defensive, unyielding we lash out on the world or coach, coerce and  control others til they become as numbed or hardened as we.

It can also forge us in compassion and that is the only route to the healing we can find.

It can exhaust us – wear us down so much we break down and reveal our pain to the world.

Some will tell you that you have an illness, a faulty brain, faulty genes, a “chemical imbalance” and call you any number of dehumanizing names – and it is absolutely your right to choose to believe their story.

Or you can choose any other, so choose yours…

I got thorns in my spirit.
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Trauma is not the thing that happened…


It’s become a commonplace to talk of trauma as bad shit done by evil persons with evil intent. Yet trauma is much simpler to understand, and simpler to talk about.

In western medicine we incorrectly categorise trauma by the events that happened-
when in fact, trauma is the effect left within us by our experience .

-Dr Robert Scaer, The Trauma Spectrum

Trauma is not the thing that happened, it is the effect left within us by our experiences.

That effect is very real, and in every way: physiological, psychological, sociological, it affects every aspect of our mind, our body, our relationships with ourselves, with others and how we experience and move in this world.

Every experience changes us, changes our brain, even our DNA. To be traumatised is to be left wounded by our experiences in ways that can leave us stuck in a response pattern that makes like overwhelming, painful and prevent us from moving forward.

Trauma is not something we remember it is something that we relive.

To be “triggered” is to have those painful moments flood over us in a great tsunami of emotion, pain, confusion and disconnectedness and  powerlessness.

Trauma is not the thing that happened it is the effect left within us from our experiences.

That we are still here means that we have survived, that we are surviving – that we are are survivor!

We can also learn to heal, and we can learn to support others as they heal.

 

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Trauma means Wound


These days there’s a lot of talk about trauma, and a lot of talking that regards  trauma mistakenly as the thing that happened…  bad shit done by evil persons with evil intent.

We’ve also come to use that understanding to classify trauma- and so traumatised persons themselves – into categories of  how bad was the shit [done by evil persons with evil intent] that happened specifically to them. 

This means that many are being denied access to support.

This talk of trauma as bad shit done by evil people with evil intent holds us back from having grown-up conversations about what it means to be wounded by life, and how we learn to support people in healing their wounds.

It is time for different conversations about trauma, that instead of trapping us as helpless victims help us heal and learn, find our power and move forward .

‘Trauma” means “Wound”.
That’s it, no shit.

If you’ve been wounded by your experiences then you have already demonstrated just how how resilient you are.

They – you know who – will tell you you are a victim of “brain disease” and “chemical imbalance” and call you names and leave you feeling powerless.

Yet we get to choose what we call ourself so why not choose something cool that defies their shit and signifies there is much more to us than what has happened to us and who they say we are…

Wounded warrior.
No shit

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a person given a diagnosis of “psychosis” is 15 times more likely to …


Wonder how the “voice inside your head”  finished off that sentence…

Some straight talking…

Here’s some data:

A person who has been given a diagnosis of psychosis is three times more likely to have been abused as a child than a person with other psychiatric diagnoses.

A person who has a diagnosis of psychosis is fifteen times more likely to have been abused as a child than a person with no psychiatric diagnosis. [1]

A person with a psychiatric diagnosis is more likely to be victim of violence than perpetrator – and four times more likely to be the victim of violence than a person with no diagnosis. [2]

You and I are 1,100 time more likely to be killed by an absent minded driver than by a stranger in psychosis. [3]

a person who..,

 

[1]  Bebbington, P., Bhugra, D., Brugha, T., Singleton, M., Farrell, M. & Jenkins, R. (2004). Psychosis, victimisation and childhood disadvantage: Evidence from the second British National Survey of Psychiatric Morbidity. British Journal of Psychiatry, 185, 220 6.

[2] Mentally ill” at high risk of violence. at risk  

[3]   Risk of death in traffic accident 1.100 times greater than by a stranger with psychosis 1,100 times greater.

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Beware of the flowers…


john otway2Beware of the flowers
‘Cause I’m sure they’re gonna get you

Yeah!

 

 

Look out baby
Look out Pet
Here’s the kid
Who’s gonna get the Blues
When you go away
I’m on fire
Cause I’m in love
With a girl who’s not the girl she was
When I was out with her
I saw you in the garden baby
You looked so debonair

Beware of the flowers
‘Cause I’m sure they’re gonna get you

Yeah!

I won’t try to say goodbye
Maybe I’ll just kick myself inside
I really want to go home
You might say that today
Was the very last time you walked this way
You’ll tell him on your own
Well I’d tell him where to go to baby
But you know I wouldn’t dare

Beware of the flowers
‘Cause I’m sure they’re gonna get you

Yeah!

Disagree, Disapprove
Baby they all said that it was me
Who went out in the nude
How can you be so sure
Baby when the love shines it is pure
It’s a light that shines on us
Well I know someone who loves you baby
And I know he really cares

Beware of the flowers
‘Cause I’m sure they’re gonna get you

Yeah!

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The Sanity of Insanity


What if, instead of fearing it as a place we never come back from and seeking to control anyone who comes near it, we choose to embrace madness as a state of being that is not only understandable, but – every now and then at least – a necessary part of “a wise and good life”?

A short film [4mins] from The School of Life on the importance ,  nay, necessity and sanity of insanity.
The sane world is so demanding and, well, “sane” durr,  that mad moments are not only understandable but also a necessity. They are also  a gateway to figuring what we actually need.

We we can continue our doctrine of fear and control  [ and how’s that working out for ya?] or we can choose to learn,  and embrace mad moments as renewing, rejuvenating and generative – connecting us with what’s most important.

The Sanity of Insanity
images & text below are from The School of Life – though we did de-should it.

sane0Life requires us to be very sane, and pretty much all the time.

On a daily basis we have to be responsible, polite, productive, thoughtful, patient, logical, reliable and dazzlingly successful too.

sanity 5aThese obligations slowly crept up on us as we were growing up.
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sanity2 Now, they are our constant reality.
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No one can really keep going like this over a whole lifetime.
the burdens are too great, our minds too delicate.
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sanity4Unfortunately society doesn’t give us much room to fall apart. . .
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sanity 5It wants us at the desk, every day, at nine am sharp, with a powerpoint, ready to go.
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Ansanity 6d the pressure doesn’t let up until
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we’re finally relesanity 7ased to sleep after eleven at night. so we have no option but to keep going. 
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While, onsanity 8 the side, we may
be drinking too much, waking up at odd times of the night, addicted to the internet, calming ourselves down with sedatives and developing all kinds of twitches and ailments.
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Bsanity 9ut, in  truth, no good life can go by without a few open incidents  of breakdown: moments when we pull up a white flag and declare ourselves to be unable to cope or able to fulfill any of our normal “functions” for a time.
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Rsanity10ather than seeing this as an illness…
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sanity11We could choose instead, to interpreted as evidence of normality, and even helpful. .
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Insanity 12 our “crazy” moments we might be…
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lying in bed starisanity 13ng at the ceiling for long periods,
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ssa nity 14eeming to make no sense,
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sanity 15wearing strange clothing sitting on the porch all day doing nothing . .
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sanity 16shouting
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singingsanity17
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dasanity18ncing
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csanity20avorting
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sanity21being silly in a way one hasn’t been for decades
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msanity22aking some unusual new friends
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sanity24taking off to strange places.
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Nsanity25aturally, such phases won’t be easy for those around us, but we could, collectively , know how to tolerate these phases without panic, as just part of ordinary life.
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We sanoity28allow our bodies to have moments of breakdown and rest

sanity26we could allow similar moments for our minds.
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In any cassanity28e the so called “sane world is pretty disturbed too..

Its apparently in “mental health” that we set ourselves the tasks of…
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sanity29
energetically destroying the planet . . . .
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sanity30work to meet punishing but arbitrary economic targets
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lsanity31eave our selves no time for anything  but work
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sanity 29adrown in toxic media, develop unrealistic expectations about our bodies, relationships and families
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nsanity32o wonder we need  periods of true madness as corrective.
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A Good mental breakdown

sanity33A good one is where we allow ourselves
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sanity36to connect with valuable truths that we’ve lost sight of,
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sanity35emotions and insights that we’ve lost sight of or that ordinary life has prevented us from investigating.
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perhaps, ssanity 35aexual exploration, creativity, heedlessness,
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csanity 37ontasanity 39ct with our bodies,
empathy, ecstasy,
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sanity 40a new kind of self-knowledge.
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sanity42sanity41The idea is that we retur
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and plant in the fields of apparent sanisaniy43ty
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sanity44a lot of valuable seeds that can bear fruit and sustain us in the periods ahead.
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sanity46We can, at a collective level, give ourselves unfrightened accounts of what mad episodes mean
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confident that a resanity 45con
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sanity49We are not automatons
but highly complicated, volatile collections of proteins that needs careful and sympathetic administration.
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sanity50We can choose to expect that periods of madness do belong to every wise and good life.

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we spend billions…


We spend billions in the wrong places.

We spend billions on systems to prevent us from taking the drugs we like to take.

We spend more billions on systems to make us take the drugs that they want us to take.

We spend even more billions of making sure those who are reluctant to take their drugs, do take them,  ignoring and even removing their human rights to just say say ‘no’.

We spend yet more billions on making people dependent, then on blaming them for their dependence.

We spend billions on repeating lies about broken brains and chemical imbalances. and and genes and how close we are to some major scientific breakthrough.

And we spend billions on blaming those who don’t step forward and ask for their help.

Imagine if we took only a small amount of that giant pile of wasted cash and spent it on things that’d actually make a real difference.

 

…and they say we “lack insight”.

Billions on bollocks – that’s what spending on mental health looks like.
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billions on bollocks

 

 

 

 

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Go Go Swing – Chuck Brown


chuck-brownIt don’t mean a thing if it ain’t got the doo wap swing

Doo-wap, doo-wap, doo-wap, doo-wap, doo-wap,  doo-wo-ow

 

 

It don’t mean a thing
If it ain’t got that swing
(doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah
Doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah)
It don’t mean a thing
All you got to do is sing
(doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah
Doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah)
It makes no diff’rence
If it’s sweet or hot
Just give that rhythm
Ev’rything you got
Oh, it don’t mean a thing
If it ain’t got that swing
(doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah
Doo wah, doo wah, doo wah, doo wah)

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we reduce ourselves to fiddling around…


fiddling around

When we reduce our understanding of human struggle
to a problem of brain chemicals
we reduce ourselves
to fiddling around with chemicals.

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Here comes MADx


MADx flyer1

First there was Big Ted and Little Ted, then BitMadTed
Then came TED, TEDx and REDx Talks…
Here comes MADx.

See you there…
We’ll be in the back room, at the downstairs bar…

What’s REDx ? REDx Talks

 

Map
imperial pub map

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